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Life in poly isn’t as free as secondary school life anymore. Busy Busy Busy was the word in my mind like all of the time. Try to run away from that word, and you will get smacked back by 5 pieces of 2d art every week, Hell? Probably so.

So many people that i talked to said that relationships were only a burden. But i doubt so. I guess humans need some motivation to do things and that extra boost might have come from relationships! Probably people found that relationships was a bad choice now due to the amount of responsibility one have to take up when they start it. But is it always that way?

According to what i see or hear from everyday, there is always a group who doesn’t meet their true love and often they grumble. What for grumble? i mean everyone have a time to come right? And i personally experience like that with a close friend of mine. I’ve been going so near always with my girlfriend, and i also often ask him to tag along with a couple of friends. Yet i don’t know why, he fabricated or maybe say things in his own view not regarding my feelings nor anything.

I asked myself, and i found myself always thinking back of how i pleased him with games or movies or anything. But with his new group of friends, he kind of go along with them. He asked me to go to another church with him, but I’m loyal to my own home church which HE was the one who first brought me to. Talking about home church being the most important, I just don’t feel good to go another church or somewhere else other than my home church. Its like asking me to move away from my parents or my girlfriend and stay somewhere in USA. I just can’t take it. Plus, he became quite unfriendly and HE deems that hes still the same.

Talking about Fabricating stories of me being the bad person, The facts are just stated so obviously.Maybe Jealousy is one factor but what for and why get jealous?

Because you cant have a girlfriend?

Because I am much uglier than you and you are much handsome so I cant have one?

Why?

okay enough of that i guess. I think I’m much more motivated to do things when shes around. or probably waiting for her class to end and have just that short break with her. Yes, you might probably say, It’s quite possessive, but think about it, when you have a wife, don’t you want to be possessive over her? And protect her like you are really her guardian angel?

That’s why I find that the world’s logic is a bit wrapped up. But who am I to change the world’s thoughts? The only way out is just to be different from the world. That’s why I deem myself as a special person. I might be a guy but I kind of hate what guys can do. Playing Girl’s Feelings? Just Making Use Of Her? Ordering her around like you’re the boss or what? That’s just not Me. I just don’t like those feelings.

And what more, Staring at beautiful girls when one already have a girlfriend? HELLO, you’re supposed to be thinking of only her and only want her to be your one and not other beautiful girls.

“Don’t Judge The Book By It’s Cover?” Who will even ever do it? People will just say its foolish and its impossible. I guess I am That Fool and I’m Proud of it. I bet many people will be like saying but yet doing another. And what the world says that what boys will do, I just don’t seem to be them. Am I even a boy? I’m Positive I am.

“Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you”

A song by M2M, Pretty Boy. M2M brings back the memories of my secondary school of every small little events. Events that made me happy and made me go super emo to one corner. It’s like a roller coaster ride. M2M is special too, cause of their voices and how their voices combined into a group as one. Sweet voice yet not that kiddo-ish. Nice melody, rather than some other songs. Somehow I feel Old songs are much better in expressing feelings rather than the latest Pop song or Rock songs.

I just need those sentimental songs! Where did all of them went to? Goshhh!! I pray that this Sentimental Songs Era will come back again!! I’m not saying that other songs are not nice, I just feel that sentimental songs calms a person down or even allow him to express feelings! Maybe it’s just me again, but somehow the trend is more towards the Dance Or Pop songs. I’m Just So Not Into The Trend.

I believe I’m Different and it’s up to you to believe if I am. I am just not into overrated stuff such as Girl’s Generation or High School Musical. Maybe I am like an old man, if you would want to say. But I just believe that I’m Different.

I Live In The World, But My Thinking Are Not Part Of The World. Neither will my actions be. I’m Special.

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