This topic is really very sensitive but I can’t seem to help it and I have to touch about this topic. Maybe I might be wrong, but isn’t this blog all about my opinion. I mean, if you don’t like it, you can comment. And if you agree, why not also comment about it?

Yes, I shouldn’t really be a bad boy to talk about it, just that the sentence “I eat salt more than you eat rice” seems to piss me off a lot. I mean, I know you gone through life, and I know you know more than me, but that’s what you know about the past. Past aren’t equals to Future, hence everyone should be constantly learning right? Experience doesn’t make you have really a right stand to say anything or lecture us. Yes, experience is important, I never deny, but your experience in the past might not be the same as the experience we youngsters are experiencing.

Take fashion as an example, does the fashion in the olden days equals to the fashion to our youngsters generation? I think we both know the answer.

What im trying to say, im not trying to say that we shouldn’t listen to our parents, but actually we should absorb it and explain it back to them. If they eat salt more than we eat rice, they must be having hypertension now ( well im just joking. ) What I am stating is that, sometimes things really changes…

Im not pin pointing at all parents but most are the same. Did you stop and listen to your children? Or did you shrug them off and continue with your work. If you did that, then it will be same when the children grow up. Then they start blaming about it, isn’t it VERY unreasonable?

Doesn’t mean that you are an adult means you know everything and what you say are right.

Aren’t you also affected by the society?

Aren’t you also affected by the newspaper and television?

Aren’t you also affected by your friends who constantly gossip?

If you are listening to all these, then what makes you have the experience? I thought experience is what you EXPERIENCED, since the word came from there.

Taking for example in relationship, If you know that one party found another party and they are fated, they went through a lot before meeting each other, Why not let them be together as in… just believe that they will last? If your child has found their happiness and feels xin fu, why not just grant them the wish?

You might say, im just a teenager, I still don’t know about the world. But why do we even want to know so much, why cant we just simply believe? Why do we always need evidence for things?

And things also got worse with people who thinks they know a lot and want to have a say in anything. Don’t they know they will just make things worst? I feel that just keep it to yourself, isn’t it better?

Talking about troubles and stuff really bores you out right? Actually, all people want I guess are just Praise.

It’s difficult for people to praise one another right? But everyone just want to get praise sometimes. A little praise will not hurt right? However it seems that giving children or anybody else some praise does seem that it will kill one person. You just ask yourself, when was the last time you gave praise to somebody.

Long ago right?

I know everyone’s not perfect, but shouldn’t we just ignore our experience for awhile and be a kid, and learn all the knowledge that are there? And even if we learn the knowledge, we shouldn’t use it to say people off

EVERYONE’S LIFE ISN’T THE SAME RIGHT?

So, why try to change someone life with your experience?

Just leave it be, everyone just want their own life, Not a Controlled and suffering life. If your children is suffering, why not just take one step back, and just believe?

Not all people are bad, Just let them lead……..

Their own LIFE.

Yet another rough week which i meet lots of people that are generally showing how bad our politeness nor kindness shows. What’s wrong with waiting? Everyone seems to be rushing here and there. Well, i admit i was one of them who rushes here and there like some bulls aiming for red cloth last time when i was young.

Actually, i was sick. which slows my life down for quite abit last friday. Yeahh… its vesak day and i was sick. How great can that be? Then i went to see a doctor at Queenstown PolyClinic on Saturday. Well, needless to say, polyclinic has lots of people cause generally the price is like 80% cheaper then normal doctor. Yeah, i understand that waiting can be a bugging issue here for everyone.Normally, 2 and 1/2 hour wait is nothing and i won’t complain. Cause everyone is waiting too.

BUT, that Saturday really made me super angry. I was waiting for my turn. At first i already had this mindset that i will be waiting for more than 2 hours. then i look around me, not many people had the room number im having. So i was happy. THEN THINGS STARTED TO HAPPEN. One by one, PATIENTS WITHOUT NUMBER, started going into the room. And they come out, after that, the nurse says, “you will be next, i know you dun have a number, but you will be next.” AND alot of people started to do the same thing. And I WAS outside waiting like a fool. After that, i try to understand that maybe they are more urgent than me, so i cooled down, along with my gf.

When i saw my number flashing, I stood up. THEN OUT OF NO WHERE, AN INDIAN GUY RUSHES IN FRONT AND OPEN THE DOOR AND WALKED IN. inside my heart was like “WHAT THE F***?” and i was literally standing infront of the door and look blurly. And the doctor just attend to the indian guy. My girlfren stared with her eyes wide open. and she pull me back to the seat. Then we started to comment.

My point is, If you want to go first or maybe your number was infront of mine, you could have tell me first. But HE DIDN’T. when the door opened, he rushed in. What is this? Someone tell me? Why cant we just polite or wait until the person agrees to let you go first? What with all the impoliteness. Aren’t People taught about this when they are small?

Even if i want to change these things, But who am i to do so?

If i can, i would take a photo of them and edit like some monster. Good idea, But I can get sued.

If i can, I would put their photo on a dart board and throw darts on them. Classic, Lack Of Activity, Old School.

If i can, I would smack them and run……

But i can’t. Who I Am to do all this.

Maybe i should just concentrate on my well-being and my girlfriend well-being too. Maybe i should just close one eye to all these thing.

Maybe i should just…….  I G N O R E.

Lately, My girlfriend has been crazy over Icy Mocha Soya at the Mr Bean Shop. Well, I was crazy once last time. I remembered my Mother bought home this drink and was exclaiming loudly saying ” BOY! Come Try This Drink, Very Nice One!!” She suddenly seemed to me like a small girl carrying some sweets home and like very happy about it.

Now its my girlfriend turn, every time we walk pass either Mr Bean or maybe jolliebean, She will be holding my hand tight and ask if she can buy Icy Mocha Soya from Mr Bean, or Icy Chocolate from JollieBean. She really makes me feel that shes super cute to the max. These are like the little things we do when we are out together.Seriously I Enjoy My Whole Time With Her.

Well, today was no difference, when she reached my Mrt station, the first thing she said was she wanted the Icy Mocha. Well, I expected it already, that’s why i waited for her down stairs the Mrt station rather than at the control station. She was excited about getting her cup of Icy Mocha Soya again, and also, as expected.

We entered the shop happily and ordered. Then my mood changed. Why? cause the lady who served us didn’t know how to make Icy Mocha Soya! How can that be? Okay, maybe she was new. Then she asked the head owner to do the drinks for us. Well, i was happy, cause finally someone knows how to make the drinks that we wanted. But then………. i realised the head owner was doing something for the other customer, and the customer was like 4 persons ahead of us. She was standing at the side corner of the shop and waiting. When she saw that the head owner was doing our Icy Mocha Soya, Her face instantly changed to a black face. Like Super Super black. After we gotten our Icy Mocha Soya then she got her things that she ordered. She didn’t even say thank you, she snatched the food over and stare at me when i was blocking the place where the spoons are.

Then my mood swing even more. She STARED AT ME. and then she make the TSK sound very loud. I was like, Wad the F*** is wrong with this woman. She can grow impatient cause the head owner was doing our food but not hers. But she could also walk up infront of us and tell the head owner that shes in a rush or something and request to do her food first. But She DIDN’T. I mean, if you are really in a rush, i would understand and also ask the head owner to do her food first, she shouldn’t even TSK me as if it was my fault!!!

i think people are growing more and more impatient and very rude. I am not pin pointing at all adults but some adults just do not have the basic courtesy. They just see teenagers and they tend to bully them like they think they are so big. What’s wrong with it? Their egoistic pride? I seriously think that not only children are to be taught to be polite, but also ADULTS.

Sometimes i just think that teenagers and children are much more polite that adults. Have you ever seen adults squeezing in the middle of the train when the train is packed? No. Its always the teenagers that will try to squeeze their way in. The adults will just stand there and block the way to the middle and create many ” hao peng you ( good friends in english) ( aka Ghosts.) ”.  I just cant stand the way that adults sometimes blame us for not being polite.

Even in giving up seats. How often do adults give up seats to old people? I think its either the teenagers or children that will often give their seats up to the elderly.

So if you ask me, Are Adults MORE polite than teenagers?

You should know my answer.

What about War that interest people?

The guns? The Weapons Used? The Amount Of Bombs Dropped Down? The Little Boy Of Hiroshima? Or Perhaps The Cold War And The World War 1′s Tragedies?

for me, its different. It’s about this guy who many people hate. Some called him a nightmare giver. Some shake their heads and turn away from you when you say his name.

Whose this person then? its none other than adolf hitler.

Adolf hitler is one of my favourite wartime hero. You can call me evil or what so ever. But that’s just his bad points. Why doesn’t anyone look at his good points? He brought Germany out of the troubles they have been facing since World War 1. He turned the economy around. Why does people always look at his bad side? Him killing people in gas chambers, sending them to torture camp and so on. His leadership perhaps prove more interesting than those, ain’t it true?

Don’t deny that adolf hitler have a very high leadership which he can govern the whole country. Don’t deny that Adolf Hitler does have those qualities. But why does people only look on his good side?

Say, i ask myself this question, Why? why do people only look at the bad side or negative side of things? Why can’t people look on the bright side of the world? Is People of the world losing trust between each others? Contracts have to be made to ensure people do not run away from it. Teachers have to be there in class to ensure people doesn’t cheat. But why all these troubles?

Where are all those times that doors can be unlocked, and you can just leave your house and to return like  2 hours later with nothing happening to your house? Gone are those days. Gone. Gone are those days that people just seem to trust one and other for big things and so. But why are these things gone?

Cause people are getting more evil?

Cause people are getting more greedy and so?

I don’t have the answer. Or is it, just for the security? I really have no idea.

It’s like… The world trust and relationship between people are slowly dragged down by Technology. People said Technology was to help them, but instead, i think it’s killing the world.

Handphone and Smses are Invented to bring convenient into the picture, but the side effects are that people don’t normally meet up to say things in their face.

Imagine….

A guy asking to be together with the girl. Normally, without handphones or phones, He have to summon his courage to go towards the girl to tell her how much he wants to be with her. But with smses around, he can just type a simple short message of “Can We Be Together? I’ve Been Loving You For Quite Long. ” WHAT’S THE POINT? Its so dead, emotionless and you can’t really know if hes true!!

Saying sorry to the other half sometimes have to go through facebook walls or even smses. Don’t you feel that you would want him to apologise straight infront of your face to know he really mean it?

Yes i don’t deny that we have to rely on handphone to pass certain messages if we are really very busy to the max. But this, i find, issn’t the way the World should be heading towards.

Enough of all those sad stuffs. I just feel that people are slowly lacking of courage.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,

When there’s no light the break up dark

That’s when I, I…

I Look at you.

When the waves are flooding the shore and i can’t

Find my way home anymore,

That’s when I,I…

I look at you.

Miley Cyrus- When I Look At You. This song is a meaningful song, it like the world is such a chaos, They should just look at themselves and look at people. Slowly trusting them for small little things and build confidence. I’ve Been saying about the world, But i too, cant seem to walk out of this Not So Trust Worthy World.

Listening to this song just make me remember about this morning’s bus ride to school. Normally it’s normal to see my special someone at 10.45. But today is so different, cause she have lessons ( finally cause her lessons always been make up at wed. ) now. It feels so weird, like really VERY VERY VERY WEIRD. It just don’t feel the same.

Sighs, Yes, I Miss Her.

But what to do? Got to Wait Still>_<

Life in poly isn’t as free as secondary school life anymore. Busy Busy Busy was the word in my mind like all of the time. Try to run away from that word, and you will get smacked back by 5 pieces of 2d art every week, Hell? Probably so.

So many people that i talked to said that relationships were only a burden. But i doubt so. I guess humans need some motivation to do things and that extra boost might have come from relationships! Probably people found that relationships was a bad choice now due to the amount of responsibility one have to take up when they start it. But is it always that way?

According to what i see or hear from everyday, there is always a group who doesn’t meet their true love and often they grumble. What for grumble? i mean everyone have a time to come right? And i personally experience like that with a close friend of mine. I’ve been going so near always with my girlfriend, and i also often ask him to tag along with a couple of friends. Yet i don’t know why, he fabricated or maybe say things in his own view not regarding my feelings nor anything.

I asked myself, and i found myself always thinking back of how i pleased him with games or movies or anything. But with his new group of friends, he kind of go along with them. He asked me to go to another church with him, but I’m loyal to my own home church which HE was the one who first brought me to. Talking about home church being the most important, I just don’t feel good to go another church or somewhere else other than my home church. Its like asking me to move away from my parents or my girlfriend and stay somewhere in USA. I just can’t take it. Plus, he became quite unfriendly and HE deems that hes still the same.

Talking about Fabricating stories of me being the bad person, The facts are just stated so obviously.Maybe Jealousy is one factor but what for and why get jealous?

Because you cant have a girlfriend?

Because I am much uglier than you and you are much handsome so I cant have one?

Why?

okay enough of that i guess. I think I’m much more motivated to do things when shes around. or probably waiting for her class to end and have just that short break with her. Yes, you might probably say, It’s quite possessive, but think about it, when you have a wife, don’t you want to be possessive over her? And protect her like you are really her guardian angel?

That’s why I find that the world’s logic is a bit wrapped up. But who am I to change the world’s thoughts? The only way out is just to be different from the world. That’s why I deem myself as a special person. I might be a guy but I kind of hate what guys can do. Playing Girl’s Feelings? Just Making Use Of Her? Ordering her around like you’re the boss or what? That’s just not Me. I just don’t like those feelings.

And what more, Staring at beautiful girls when one already have a girlfriend? HELLO, you’re supposed to be thinking of only her and only want her to be your one and not other beautiful girls.

“Don’t Judge The Book By It’s Cover?” Who will even ever do it? People will just say its foolish and its impossible. I guess I am That Fool and I’m Proud of it. I bet many people will be like saying but yet doing another. And what the world says that what boys will do, I just don’t seem to be them. Am I even a boy? I’m Positive I am.

“Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you”

A song by M2M, Pretty Boy. M2M brings back the memories of my secondary school of every small little events. Events that made me happy and made me go super emo to one corner. It’s like a roller coaster ride. M2M is special too, cause of their voices and how their voices combined into a group as one. Sweet voice yet not that kiddo-ish. Nice melody, rather than some other songs. Somehow I feel Old songs are much better in expressing feelings rather than the latest Pop song or Rock songs.

I just need those sentimental songs! Where did all of them went to? Goshhh!! I pray that this Sentimental Songs Era will come back again!! I’m not saying that other songs are not nice, I just feel that sentimental songs calms a person down or even allow him to express feelings! Maybe it’s just me again, but somehow the trend is more towards the Dance Or Pop songs. I’m Just So Not Into The Trend.

I believe I’m Different and it’s up to you to believe if I am. I am just not into overrated stuff such as Girl’s Generation or High School Musical. Maybe I am like an old man, if you would want to say. But I just believe that I’m Different.

I Live In The World, But My Thinking Are Not Part Of The World. Neither will my actions be. I’m Special.